As mentioned yesterday I have won a place thanks to Runners Need to participate in the Nike Flyknit Somerset House Experience tomorrow evening.
I didn't realise this was on for a couple of days and this particular time is a special event co produced tomorrow evening with Runners Need.
I also didn't realise it involved a 6K run!
Now I have had to make a decision about going and this has been my process:
- Great, unique experience
- It may force me back into serious running and stop me faltering on my own
- Will give me opportunity to run a new route
- I could meet some great people
- I may get some cool stuff at the end of it
- I don't believe I am up to scratch to run a full 6k from start to finish (I am completing 5 or 6K but that's including my warm up and cool down)
- I don't want to be the one at the back of the pack
- I don't want to look like a fool
- It doesn't start until 18:30, when does it finish?
- I will have to go back to the office to shower and change before heading home (my commute is a further 90 minutes after this at least)
- When will I get chance to eat something decent?
- It's another night away from home this week which is another night away from Richard and Brandy 😦
And so the demons in my head go on and on.
I've written to the organisers and they assure me the event is for people of all abilities but I really am unsure I can run a solid 6K with a crowd, in the dark and on busy London streets (which I have never done before).
It would be a great experience but I think I have quite literally put too many obstacles in my path to assure myself it won't be anything other than hard work and stress.
I shall stick with my normal routine, come home my normal time and run how I feel when I get in. I can then be assured less hassle showering, changing, a hearty meal and an evening with my babies.
Sound like I am chickening out? It might do but with work being so frantic and the possibility of not getting back after a long day until around 22/2300 with nothing more than a Burger King burger inside me isn't that appealing.